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Monday, September 26, 2011

ok finally i finished the fucked-up assignment. stupid RM stupid RM stupid RM. WHY MUST I TAKE IT ANW. they could jus let me clear all my stupid elective compulsory mods now instead of doing this stupid retarded module. and it penalises me cause my english sucks. and i haven written anything proper so long i forgot how to punctuate properly when inserting conversations into news report. YEA NEW REPORT. can u believe i have to pretend im a reporter now? another job i'm glad i didn't undertake. i make a better fiction writer den reporter -.- or hate mail writer. i can jus easily CAPITALISE all the words and throw in all my hate on a piece of crappy paper.

there goes my recess week. thanks ah. so much for the grand plans to catch up on lectures, study properly for the damable drug quiz, score a for bloody comp med. FORGET IT. I SHOULD JUS THINK ABOUT GRADUATING SAFELY. -.- see ah, i aimed for second uppers and dropped to second lower. wanted to remain at second lower and went south to third class. now that i want to pass, mayb i'll get thrown out hoho.

blah I"L NEVER GET OVER THIS SHIT. hate sch. cannot wait to graduate the hell out of here. doubt preceptorship will be easy shit too -.- RAR. FEELING IRRITATED.

year 4 sucks. it's lonely as hell and boring as shit. work is more independent and i cannot give a shit. everyone feels like a stranger and i feel lik i'm out of the dam loop. i feel dismissed and lik a big fat failure in all aspects of my phail life.

i cannot maintain relationships and i cannot be smart. i cannot save money and i cannot earn money. i cannot do what's best for myself and i'm such a boring person. i cannot help being boring wat. and studying pharmacy and science made me an even more boring person. i hate being boring. because i dont lik to bore other people. becausei noe the shit feeling of being bored. and what's the point of being able to empathize when in the end nobody gives a shit and u're left to deal with ur own shit? when everyone steps on u to further their future. where life is a rat race, and if u win u're jus a dam rat, but if u lose, u feel sad for even losing in a low life rat race. lik i cannot excel in anything.

and here i am whining about so many pathetic unmeaningful things while ppl are dying in wars, dying of starvation, dying of sickness and disease. apparently i cannot appreciate what i have yea.

mood of the month: irritatedness and anger.





signing off
amethyst
12:17 AM