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Thursday, September 01, 2011

hahas. i lied when i say i'll get over it. but seriously it's easier to feel better talking to someone den trying to pull urself out of shit. it's easier to cheer up and make resolutions.

i wont get over it. look how long it took to get over _____. i'm gonna stay a resentful revengeful person. hai. =( the worst thing is you dont care. sheesh. -.- feels angry again. and i'm nt supposed to feel this way after waking up. it's a blissful feeling sometimes, when u get out of bed and feel all empty and zero turmoil inside.

it's hard when i cannot dissociate myself from this shit. i wont be able to move on. dissociation and den the neutral-i-cannot-be-bothered-with-u is my desire.  okok i should jus give myself time.

i shall stop being in denial too. it was a total disaster and a bad decision on my part. it would hav been better if i had chosen to stay. at least i wont feel so alone now. and i wont have to sit alone during lect -.- but mayb things would have gotten worst between ig and i. haha. i guess u cant have the best of both worlds den. either way it would suck.



signing off
amethyst
10:52 AM