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Tuesday, February 22, 2011

recesss week sucks. how many more cycles i have to go thru? the cycle of vowing to study, convincing myself to study, didn't study, den in the end panic and emo at the end of recess week?

oh not much, just two more times. if i wish to graduate safely. =.- yea i might whine so much, but i imagine i'l just die if i cannot go thru this cycle two more times cause i got kicked out.

wondrous.

i'm nt interested in anything now. stupid lb charge so much for lousy cotton shirt. nth nice now. i look lik shit in watever i wear anyway, why bother? why try so hard? jus lie down and die. what the heck am i living for anyway?

only thing that pipes my interest now is tuition. and only one particular student. when i explain sth and they get it and i get the goosebump feeling cause at least i can explain to u and u understodd. or when they ask interesting questions and i have to twist facts to ans them. i hate teaching you if u arent the least bit interested thou.i'm not a piece of crap anw.

i miss the days when i lik learning new stuff. or feel amazed at how the periodic table was arranged. or feel the sense of accomplishment when i get so much done.

now i dont give a crap abt how dynamic or watever crap pk is. it jus feel lik it's trying to make my life a living hell. and i feel lik screaming at the the work that keeps piling up.

and my tuition kid, can see he's really not a sci student, the way he thinks. it makes me wonder, did i think and wonder lik that last time? mayb i'm nt a good sci student too. in which case, i suck at arts too. so wat am i good at?

hai.  i have no life no nth.



signing off
amethyst
11:36 PM