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Tuesday, December 07, 2010

"do u think i'm boring?"

"yes u're boring, that speech was boring. You dont let other ppl's problems affect you. you dont let ur own problems affect you. and it's the screw-ups that make us interesting,"

"you're never out of control, which is good and boring. never losing control also means u're never putting urself out there, never pushing ur limits."

"on the other hand, you do have a tattoo, so mayb i'm wrong."

---------------------- conversation between foreman and chase in "house"


so. either i try to stop being some control freak and start living life or get a tattoo. -.- been watching house (after i completed grey's anatomy). even though grey's was definitely a nicer series with more "heart" in it, house wasnt too bad, just that house is a very irritating character, and the people looked so irritated with each other all the time. and the conversation is hard to catch sometimes cause they like to talk in the roundabout manner, and my brain being brain-dead in front of the computer couldnt really catch it.despite the extremely helpful sub titles.

and i should really start downloading supernatural. hai.

sometimes, i feel lik it's really my fault anw. i'm investing my time in clothes and things that dont really matter, instead of relationships and friends. but really clothes are so much easier, and i'm so much in control (again with the control issue. hai). like investing so much in ppl, and they dont really return u the affections u expect. mayb they do, but it's at their own standard, which is considered pretty high for them. and so you feel really unreasonable when u try to justify why u're feeling this way and that.

so, why bother? (again with the refusing to step out of comfort zone and refusing to try for fear of disappointment)

and i think aft the horrendous sem, i totally deserve this break doing watever i lik ( just wish money will fall from the sky, or i can eat grass and enjoy it). i shall not think about horrible results and how guilty that i should start doing some crappy housework ard the house. hai.



signing off
amethyst
12:31 PM