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Wednesday, November 17, 2010

again with the defeated feeling. this time, i feel lik sauntering into the exam halls without studying. how cool wil that be? -.-

and if i dont start soon, this fantasy of mine will soon become reality. except it wont be too cool when i fail everything. and repeat everything -.-

hai. doesnt matter. i can labour hard and long, putting in sweat blood and tears into sth, but in the end, the more capable person (with fantastic memory, ability to put thoughts into words and numbers effectively, efficient smarter person) wins it all.

looosseerr. i'm so scared of failing that i refuse to try. wat good does it do to me den? so i should. lower my alr so low expectations and pray i would jus graduate safely instead.

have admitted defeat to online shopping. this is the period where addiction flares. i'm doomed. reali.  but it's just another form of satisfaction when i look at my pretty clothes. cause i despiar looking at my report card, so looking at my pretty clothes reminds me that i'm not a complete failure in life. -.-



signing off
amethyst
10:24 AM