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Tuesday, August 10, 2010

nothing gets me depressed lik school.

hate lab. see, mayb not being able to do bloody fyp is a blessing in disguise.

mayb everything is doomed to failure anw. my insecurity, paraniod-ness, lack of self esteem. i'm nt ready. i'm never ready. it's all wrong. i'm wrong. i should stop. i should return back.

i'm rambling. life sucks. but reali, it shouldnt suck when everything's already decided and i dont believe in bloody free will. i dont want free will anyway. i think i wil be even more miserable. i shouldn worry fear brood worry since everything's decided. i believe in fate. but unconsciously i still think i can change the future by worrying. hai. wat's the damn point? i simply need to fall into place, to quote a fren.

if given a choice, i think might jus end up here anyway. so WHY WORRY.

only the first day of school and i already spent so much energy worrying and stressing. ending up with massive headache now.

freak this.



signing off
amethyst
11:58 PM