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Thursday, June 03, 2010

depressed. i cant wait for work to end. it's not reali work i mind actually. after all who would mind jus standing ard doing nth? ok mayb a do-er lik me wil, but it's better den slacking away at home and feeling pissed that i'm wasiting my life away. at least when i stand ard and do nth, i noe it's that i'm forced to do it.=/ and that even thou it's my fault for not learning crap stuff, at least i noe i'm forced into the damn situation.

i thot i've gotten over it, but not reali. i'l nv get over it.

perhaps it's best i have this state of mind more often anw. i dont feel lik shopping or buying new stuff. can save more money.

trying so hard but failing apparently does not jus apply to studies. it applies to my social skills (or the lack of it) and my lousy fashion sense.

tgif? i wish today's friday. or rather i wish today is the end of preceptorship (den again, not reali since i've completed 0 SOAPs). i wish it's the end of my life or sth. =/ not tat i'm feeling particularly suicidal. i dont want to die now anw. not now, not when i've zero accomplishments. mayb 2012 will fast fwd to tmr. -.-

sian. overused word but i realli cannot think of a better word.



signing off
amethyst
11:24 PM