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Saturday, February 20, 2010

mayb things become special only because you will it to be. if not, no one bothers and it just becomes lik that (thinks 21st, but honestly i dont reali care cause life stil sucks anw). it's hard to make an effort and i'm so unwilling to take any risks. it's scary. what if i pour my heart and soul into it and it all falls apart?

what am i saying. T.T

so doomed for tests. i took one whole week and i'm not even done studying for pharm prac. haven touch any other damn stuff. i'm quite dead and the scary thing is i dont reali care. all i can i do now is think of all the bad stuff piling up (braces, tests, braces, exams, braces, internship, braces, damn lab report, braces, lack of money T.T).

21 is the age where u are disillusioned. u realised u have GOT to stand up for urself soon before life pass by.
21 is the age where u realised love is all about hormones chemical reaction and none of the romance sparks love they keep singing about on the radio (for me at least).
21 is the age when u soon might feel sian of feeling sian.
21 is the age u accept there's no meaning to life.
21 is the age when studies dont matter anymore -.-

frens. they need effort. everything needs effort and nurturing. i only have so much damn time and energy. i'm so tired and jaded all the time. i cant stop the train of pessmistic thoughts. mayb i'm suffering from hypertension hohoho. -.- hardly surprising cause my mum has high blood pressure and i stres myself until i get tension headache all the time.

i'm so tired damn the monograph. how to memorise 20 freaking drugs?



signing off
amethyst
12:47 AM