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Monday, February 01, 2010

21st birthday do u think i should wish for somtimes RIGHt so my life will be happier? lik after all, it's the 21st leh. i should be getting a potent wish.

yes i believe in bday wishes, do u? i believe u must blow out the candles in one breath so as to have the wish come true. i may not believe in love anymore, but some things i hold on to.

i wish for happiness,
i wish for confidence.
i wish for love,
i wish for contentment.
i wish for self-love,
i wish for beauty.
i wish for appreciation,
i wish to fit in.
i wish for world peace,
i wish for family happiness.
i wish for intelligence,
i wish for empathy.

i wish for so many things. i probably should try to combine everything in one single wish, with no loopholes for the wish to backfire on me. =/

i think my 20th wish came true.almost true anw. coming true. unless something happens. or does happen. but even if it does happen, it wont be in a way i expect it to be.

i'm so depressed now. i gave up trying to complete al the work every weekend. i give up trying to appear smart lik the rest of the world. i give up trying to aim for second upper. i wil now just aim to keep my ass within honours. -.- to avoid getting kicked out. to graduate. to move on with life.

what is the meaning of life, a fren wondered. i pondered that long ago too. why dont i jus curl up shrivel and die when i'm so miserable. why do i let life fester as it is?

mayb it's jus the red days.and the lack of sleep. and the lack of fulfilment.



signing off
amethyst
12:25 AM