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Monday, September 28, 2009

wat a horrible horrible terrible monday. mondays are bad, but today was the worst. SO FAR.

p anal (it's actually analyis but this damn mod is reali anal -.-) was so horrible despite the fact i studied for it. u would hav thot i hav letitgo, but no.

sp was so unpdtive. blah.

practical was worst. totally lik crap. didn't help migraine built up from al the stress from the tests intensified.blah. but one good thing came out, agnes is REALI a nice person. there can't be anyone else nicer,purer of heart. hahas. she sees the good in everyone, and i mean EVERYONE. T.T i'm nt such a saint.

so anw. i was right. apps has passed quite long. and the "keep in touch" watever crap is al gone too. sure i emailed this grp mate of mine for a while, but i nv did get her photos. the emails died down too. sianz. =(mayb she's busy, mayb i write boring letters.. picture.. thank goodness for marcus and his cam.

i don'tlik superficial things. al the fuyan stuf. but i'm nt a deep person wat.

i can't convince myself not to regret not choosing my current course. damningfied. i suck at pracs so clumsy, always screwing up.i need time soo long to process stuff.. and i'm nt a neat, analytical person by nature, so why put myself in such misery?

i duno wat i lik. tuition used to bemy motivation. i lik to teach. other den making me feel superior, =/ there's this wonderul sense of satisfaction when someone "gets in". or when i manage to liven up science for them. or simplfy math a bit. but no that their exams are coming, i feel lik failure again blah.

and it's sickening how i claim to myself my strengths is able to empathise andunderstand with the fallen (cause i'm lik "been there, done that"), but i keep whining about myself. and i dun step in if my self is endangered. blah. how very selfish. 

a change is needed.

some rather accurate fortune telling website (oroven accurate by hy hahas) says xia xia for my romance. lovely. hahas i shal get a dog as a pet. to increase my lifespan by 10years oso. hahsa.

http://ilife.i-cable.com/webapps/interactive/lots/lots.html

ps i'ts in chinese

and it's heartening. tat despite feeling lik crap, i hav frens who care and entertain. =)when i put an emo nick, ppl ask. thnk you al those who ask. =)



signing off
amethyst
10:53 PM