<meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <!-- --><style type="text/css">@import url(//www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head><body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/11510489?origin\x3dhttps://amethystpalace.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>
Tuesday, September 29, 2009

i noe now how ppl can be so mean, able to give scathing remarks without feeling lik some monster. i believe everyone is intrinsically good, and it's because of the bad things happening to them that they become lik that.

sometimes when i feel so miserable and left out and watever, i believe i can do al sorts of bad things jus to make myself feel better. or perhaps to make someone else as sucky as i feel. i feel lik making the person see how bad i feel. bleah. so evil. lik spreading my evilness ard.

and yea. mayb this is real bitterness. i'm gng to be some bitter old hag. T.T i should stop al these obsessing depressing about how sucky my current course is. even thou it is.

hai. feeling alone sucks. i wish at least i'm nt so alone suffering in watever i'm studying. =X not tat i'm wishing someone else to suffer. =/



signing off
amethyst
9:25 PM