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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

hardly surprising there's suddenly so many depressing (yes i noe they are depressing) entries. haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...

i'm so screwed for ppda. before ATTEMPTING (notice i use the word "attemping" and not "doing") the past yr ppda paper, i thot mayb there COULD be a minute possibility i could PASS my ppda EOY. aft looking thru the paper (and looking at the snr's ans for EVERY DAMN QN), i jus KNOW i'm gng to fail. omg. omg omg. i'm so dead, screwed, effed up............ HELP. i'm nt kidding. and it's not lik the damn qns are hard. it's jus i would hav nv thot of the damn ans even if the test is an open book test. and i darent spend too much time on ppda cause there's stil other damn mod tat need my attention.

my brain capacity is damnit small. i'm so stupid.

i'm alone. alone. nobody can help me even if they care. lik anyone cares. hard work doesn't matter now. wat i used to believe in, about hard work leading to success, and that "bitter comes before sweet" is al TRASHED. my FUNDAMENTAL beliefs are all screwed. screwed this. frikking frustrated, in despair.. wonderful way to start the bloody university life.

and it's al my fault.



signing off
amethyst
8:45 PM