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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

i've had a bad day today. i felt lik there's jus only despair and hopelessness. and perhaps i jus knew it. yesterday, i had a feeling i would forget to bring my file to school today, and despite telling myself i won't, i forgot. -.- this morning i had a feeling i would have a bad day, and i jus did. i'm so glad i'm finally home. good thing there are ppl who noticed, and cared. i REALI appreciate it, THANKS. i feel it when u noticed, whether or not u say it out.=) but to those who didn't notice, or care, it doesn't matter. seriously. i so understand the world doesn't revolve around me. realised that lesson from some english comprehension passage from so long ago.

perhaps i was in a bad mood because i told myself i will hav a bad day. perhaps when one looks thru the glass half empty, it would be half empty. but it's hard to be happy especially that the prelims and A lvls are looming, and i haven done anything that could make myself be proud of, and it seriously doesnt help people everywhere are lik bring their stuff to study everywhere. i feel soooo stressed and in despair. and it's sooo easy to jus giv up. by trying to giv more stress to me to make me work harder is jus so counterpdtive. take chem mcq crap test today, instead of being "inspired" to study, i jus gave up. it's seriously more easy to take the disappointment of not getting the ideal results when u already expected it, and not try anymore den try sooo hard and stil get the same sucky results. i think i'm reali screwed for chemistry this time, and to see things in a good light, at least this time there won't be ms watson to dui4 bu4 qi3. i reali cannot get over my o lvls results. i need more den two years to recover, jus like how i need more den2 yrs to score wonderful perfect ideal score for the a lvl syllabus. but time and tide waits for no man (or useless student in this case), so i gues i'l jus be swept away, and make lemonade with lemons that life presents. watever the lemonade outcome, i'l hav to jus swallow it.

blah. i should stop wasting my time and do my work. hoho but tel me wat's the point when i dun get results? u say not trying's half a battle lost? fine den i shal try, and when the results does come out in the end, who can i blame den?



signing off
amethyst
5:05 PM