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Wednesday, August 01, 2007

i feel lik deletin the previous post. that was SUPER random. but i guess i shal jus leave it there to remind me how i too, am prone to doing stuff that i seriously regret later.

career fair today. hmm nth much except everyone behaved very aunti-ish, collecting all the free stuff.. of course i did too! but hmmm.. mayb it's not THAT hopeless that i will not be able to find my niche in the singapore economy. -.-

ok, prelims coming, a lvls coming. i cant believe it. prelims is lik less den a mth away and i don't noe half the (shitty) content of the syllbus which i'm supposed to memorise. it jus feels so sickeningly hopeless. once upon a time i tot i would crack under so much pressure, but apparently as time goes by, one jus gets numbed. there's always this feeling of dread and despair that nv goes away. never. i think if i can safely get thru this yr, i am lik super prepared for anything (except for the horrible NEED to socialise and mix with new ppl once again). ok watever. i should seriously start revision. and tel myself to REALI STUDY. and not jus pretend. but of course, firstly i must get myself to REALI start studying.

blah. reali talking doesn't hepl solve the problem. i've learnt long ago that one only has one to depend on. and one can only pull out of misery and brooding because of the wilpower of oneself too.



signing off
amethyst
6:36 PM