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Thursday, May 24, 2007

life is so complex. bleah a quick one (i hope). i'm feeling rather... inspired to blog.

life is so complex. and it was only jus now on the bus i'm thinkin i hav a dull and boring life. but mayb again, life is all made simpler for me because i look at things differently, in a simple manner. i think i jus found out sth about myself (been finding out loads of things about myself, and sad to say, it's more of the bad things about myself tat i am quite sure of them). i found out that i cannot really "sense" things about people. sure i may think/brood a lot, and project alot into the future such that i fancy myself as a "melancholy" (melancholy is one of the personality type. the other types being chloleric, phlegmatic and sanguine. now which one wil u be?? i noe some of my frens who are true phlegmatic and some who are choleric. try googlin for these words and take some quizzes on it? be sure to tel me wat's ur personality type if u reali bothered to google for it.), but in the end, i think it all boils down to the fact that i'm rather self-centred. bleah. all i care is how i feel, and i plan and do lots of speculating in the future to prevent myself from being hated. i can't sense wat other people are reali feeling. it's lik i'm so... naive/stupid/innocent/blind. i can't even judge a person properly.

right now, studies is the priority of my life (wat a boring life). but i get so bored/not accomplished for my studies that i think about ridiculous stuff tat shouldn have brain cells wasted on. is that y i'm not doing as well as i should (lik i even hav the potential to do very well)? that i'm distraughted by this kind of stuff, even thou it will appear i'm totally focused. so i should stop these musings and concentrate instead on y is this rxm first order and wat the hell is a bacteriaphage.

hmm.. having no cca makes me feel lik i have a lot of time such tat i even allow myself time to come online and blog..

mayb my english is not THAT bad. but it's not THAT good either. i shall erm. read this holiday. tchers hav been saying we should allow ourselves time to rest and not overwork (fine, i was planning to do nth but study this whole june, not allowing myself to rest since i figure out i'm a very unproductive person who somehow manages to slack even thou i planned not to), so i shall allow myself to read a book. and mind u, the book in question is tat of FICTION (delicious fantasy that will allow me to escape the grim realities of life) and not horrid argumentative crap tat i wont understand.)

wen to watch pirates of carribean, at world's end today. not bad! but kinda long. and i'm kinda unhappy that i dun understand the very fast british english they spoke (and the chinese subtitles were flashed equally fast), but the way they made sarcastic remarks were funny, especially johnny depp! =) reali felt so satisfied and happy during and after the movie. =)



signing off
amethyst
8:04 PM